The Sum Of All Years - 24
My mother ended a life which wasn’t as sad as she felt. It was a terrible, hopeless end and I wish she’d hung in.
This ain't something else
My mother ended a life which wasn’t as sad as she felt. It was a terrible, hopeless end and I wish she’d hung in.
November 4th, 2005 at 4:17 pm
I have been reading your blog for a while, but never posted. I read this last one though, and it tugged at my heart strings. I know it was a while ago, and that I am a stranger in a completely different country, but I am sorry for your loss and hope that the hurt from that loss has eased as time goes on, as I know it will never go away. I know words are not sufficient when expressing sympathy for something like this, so please just know that my heart goes out to you.
November 4th, 2005 at 5:02 pm
Thanks Kelly. Everything goes on. I don’t mean that in a defiant way, but in an inevitable unstoppable impermanent way. It’s an awful crappy crappy thing to happen to a family and there is no getting over it and the sadness will never go away.
And… (as opposed to “but”)
That doesn’t stop us all from having a few laughs about something else. Things get sad and awful, but jumping into a pile of leaves is still fun, isn’t it? A good joke stills makes us laugh.
Fun stuff doesn’t make the sad stuff any less sad, but don’t forget that the sad stuff doesn’t make the fun stuff any less enjoyable.
At at the end of the day, it’s all “stuff” anyway, and that comes and goes too.
Thanks a lot for reading and even more for posting.
November 5th, 2005 at 1:57 am
It is just as you say.
My daughter choose to leave like that not long ago.
Your comments give me some hope for carrying on.
November 5th, 2005 at 12:25 pm
Sorry for your troubles — good that you’re keeping your chin up, though.
November 6th, 2005 at 12:47 am
Yeah, sick with it all anonymous and I agreee with Cliff, whislt “stuff” is fairly tough to deal with other “stuff” cam still raise a smile and the lewave-jumping of life still can happen.
Kia kaha (’stand strong’ in Maori)
November 6th, 2005 at 1:22 am
Stand strong,indeed.
Kia kaha tonight to anyone thinking like that.